Getting older and starting to feel it!

So..... I will be turning 29 years old this September. To a lot of people that is not old at all. But to me it just sounds so old. When I was younger I never thought this day would ever come. I always wanted to hurry up and get older. Now that I'm "older", I don't want to do it anymore.

I used to shop in the juniors section at the store when shopping for cloths. I was looking around today and I can't stand any of the cloths that are in style now. So I went over to the woman's section and I wanted to start laughing right out loud. I knew one day I would graduate to the woman's department, just didn't think it would happen this fast.

Twenty Nine years old????? That is so very close to Thirty!!!! Where did the time go?

I have always felt older then I really was growing up. When I was 15, I acted like I was 25. Some people would call me a old soul. I never did what "normal" teenagers were doing. I was always home way before curfew., never tried drugs, alcohol or anything else that was illegal. Guess you could call me boring.

I had two classes my senior year of high school. After my classes I would go straight to work. I thought that was the best thing in the world at the time. If I could go back and change that I would have stay in school my senior year with all my friends. I missed out on a lot, that I will never be able to get back. If I didn't want to act older, then I could have enjoyed being the teenager I was.

You live and learn is what I have always heard people say. I believe in that 100%. Every year I will get old and hopefully wiser. I will sometimes feel young and other times I will feel really old. Either way, I'm only as old as I feel!

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Choices

One of the thing that is so stressful about being a grown up (there are so many to choose from) is making choices. You pretty much make choices everyday. Hoping and praying they are the right ones. Sometimes even wishing you would have made a different choice every now and then. Thats just something that goes along with making decisions.

Before I make decisions, I weigh a lot of options. How will my choice effect my family? What will change when I make the decision? How will other people respond to the choice that I made? There are so making things that come with making a "grown up" decision. You always want to do the right thing, but we sometimes don't really know what that is.

When it comes down to finally making up my mind, I follow what my heart tells me to do. I also pray really hard that its the right choice to make. Somethings I'm right, sometimes I'm wrong. Its a 50/50 chance I'll get it right. Ha Ha!

I really do hate making choices to a point I will almost wait until the last minute to do so. That is a really bad thing to do. But, that is something I will have to just work on. It looks like making choice will always be apart of life, no getting out of that one.

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Siblings

When I was thinking of having kids, I always thought I would have at least two babies. When I was pregnant I quickly changed my mind. I do not want to go through that ever again. I loved the outcome, but just didn't like being pregnant. So with that being said, Jeremy will be the only child here with us on Earth.

By making that decision, I feel like I'm taking away that sibling love that comes along with having a brother or sister. He will never have the moments where he acts like he can boss someone around because he is the oldest or when we aren't looking how sweet he would be to him/her.

Brothers and Sister don't always get along, but they will always be there for you no matter what. My brother and I hardly talk or see each other anymore, but if I really needed him he would be there. Same goes for my sister. I would do the same for both of them. We all know we love each other, even if it doesn't get said that often.

Eric and I both wish we were closer to our siblings. Eric has different reasons for not seeing his brother from what I understand. I'm sure they both know that each one cares for the other. Besides those reasons, I always tell him to talk to his brother. Its the only one he will ever have, after all.

I'm praying that Jeremy gets good/close friends when he grows up. I pray that one day he finds the woman he will end up marrying and have his own little family. So I know that he will be taken care and not be a lone.

For right now he can just play with his four legged, furry sisters. Mattie and Sandy!!

So no matter what happens everyone, make sure you always talk to your brothers and sisters. After all, They will be the only one's you will ever have! :o)

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Hatfields and McCoys

Eric and I have been watching this mini series "The Hatfields and The McCoys". I have always heard about them for as long as I can remember. There are books, songs and even other movies about them. Some of the things they did to each other are just plain insane. I feel so bad for most of them. They got mad at each other over nothing at all. One of them could just look at he other the wrong way and they would be killed. Its just plain crazy and wrong. Not very many laws and rules back then either. Its pretty much fend for yourself way of life back then.

I'm so happy I never lived in the 1880's. I would not of been able to get along very well then. Luckily, I was born in the 1980's. A hundred years later. Call me spoiled, but I sure love the comfort of everything we have today, hot water, AC, Cars, TV and so much more.

If you have time, look up the show. Its a mini series with three parts. The History channel put it on. Each part is about two hours long. If you do end up watching it, please let me know what you think. I would love to hear other comments about the movie.