Jeremy and his Best friend!

Jeremy just turned one year old and from the first day we came home with him he has had a best friend. Her name is Sandy and she is a Golden Retriever. We have a feeling she thinks he is her pup. She lets him crawl all over her, in which she will just lay there and take every bit of it. There are times that I have caught them hugging each other, it is the cutest thing in the world.

Our other dog Mattie is a Lab. She can take or leave Jeremy. We know she would never in a million years hurt him, but she just doesn't care to much for him. When Jeremy crawls near Mattie, Sandy will get in between them to make sure Mattie stays away. It is so funny to watch how smart she is and just how much she really loves Jeremy.

As long as a baby is not allergic to animals, I believe that every baby should grow up with one. From what I'm seeing happen between Jeremy and Sandy it would only be for the best. Of course some dogs shouldn't be around children but thats why you would want to research what dog is right for your family. It would bring so much love into your home.

Just like I did, Jeremy will grow up with dogs around. It teaches kids responsibility, love, affection and companionship and thats just a few that comes to mind. I can't wait to see the funny, sad and happy things that happen between Jeremy and his best friend for years to come.

One on earth and one in Heaven!

When Jeremy was about 6 months old I found out I was pregnant again. It was a shock because the doctors told me that I could not get pregnant naturally. They of course were very wrong. The fact that I was pregnant again had my feels all over the place. Eric and I surely were not ready for another baby, we just had a baby 6 months prier. I felt bad that I didn't want to be pregnant. I wanted our baby that was made from love, and is a part of his/her mommy and daddy. I loved him/her the moment the nurse told me I was pregnant. But I didn't want to be pregnant again.

At about 10 weeks into the pregnancies something didn't feel right, so I went in to the doctors office right away. They did a ultrasound which showed the baby stopped growing at around 9 weeks. I tried to be strong. I just couldn't hold it back. I cried all the way to the parking lot.

I had a D&C the next morning. That was one of the saddest days Eric and I had to deal with. The next few days after I tried to act like everything was ok. Took care of my little boy like nothing ever happened. I didn't want to let him see the sadness that was in his mommy's heart. Jeremy makes me very happy, but this was a different kind of sadness. I felt guilty because I had said out sound that I didn't want to be pregnant. In my mind because I said that, that was the reason we lost our second baby.

It took awhile, but I'm now feeling a lot better and understand that it wasn't my fault that God needed our angel back in Heaven. In our hearts and minds we have two babies. One we can play with down here on Earth and the other is waiting for us in Heaven.

We love both our babies with all our hearts and even though the second baby was only in my tummy for 10 weeks, it was and still is a part of us.

Mommy, Daddy and your brother Jeremy love you very much. We will meet you one day!  

Being a stay at home mom.

I have worked since I was 15 years old. My first job was at a local movie theater near my house. I loved making my own money and the feeling of being responsible. I never thought that one day I would be working 24/7 at the hardest job in the world and love every second of it.

There have been a few people say, "you get to stay home all day, that must be wonderful". Don't mean to burst their bubble, but its not like I sit around watching TV all day. The days pretty much repeat themselves a lot. Wake up, make bottles, feed the baby breakfast, change diapers, try and get him to take a nap, clean kitchen, do laundry, pick up the toys and so on. I normally get to eat lunch while folding the cloths. The funny thing about it all is, I wouldn't change it one thing about it.

While I was pregnant, I went back and forth on if I wanted to be a stay at home mom. When Jeremy was born I knew it was the only thing I was meant to do. It has turned out to be the best thing I have ever done. Its not the easiest job ever, but it sure is the most rewarding.

Almost a year!

When I had Jeremy on May 20th 2011, he came by C-section. I got to see him for a few seconds before they rushed him away to another room. I had no idea what was happening at that point. Of course I was stuck on the table because I was still being put back together. My husband Eric followed the doctor to make sure our son was ok. It was about two hours later that I found out Jeremy had serious lung issues. They put him in the NICU and had him hooked up to breathing tubes and monitors. With in less then 24 hours of my little baby being born we were told that he needs to get to another hospital's NICU as soon as they can. He was transported by helicopter to a very good hospital in Austin. With me just having a C-section and hardly able to walk, I still wanted out to go see my son. I was discharged the next morning, they didn't want to keep mother and baby apart.

When I first walked into the NICU at the new hospital I was so sad. I looked at my son with all these wires and tubes going everywhere. Eric and I made sure to come see him everyday no matter what. He was the only thing that mattered to me anymore.

When Jeremy got to come home for the first time, he was a month old. I remember him being so small. His daddy and me were so scared because we no longer had the nurses helping us out anymore. It was just us taking care of our tiny baby boy.

Fast forward to the present moment,. Jeremy will be one years old this Sunday May 20th. Time has just flown by way to fast. I feel like I'm loosing my little baby boy and he is turning into my wonderful little big boy. He is getting smarter by the day. Being able to stay home with him as given me the chance to see all his "first" times. He is the best thing to happen to me and his daddy. I just can't believe he will be a year old already.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY BOY!!! We love you so much!

First blog post ever

Hello! I'm pretty excited about starting this blog. I was a little nervous at first because I'm not the best at grammar and where periods go. I didn't want that to stop me, after all I'm sure I'll get better as time goes on.

I was not sure what to write about when I decided to start a blog. I thought pretty hard about it and came up with nothing. My whole world pretty much did a 360 when my son was born. I'm married, I no longer work, I have this little baby that needs me, and I am now a house wife. I have always had a job since I was 15 years old. I was not sure I was going to be able to just stay at home. I thought I would just go crazy with nothing to do. My son had other plans because he sure keeps me busy. The house work never ends. I never knew before that the house can get dirty so fast. So after thinking about all of this I thought to myself that I'm just going to write about being a house wife, stay at home mom and the maid. I hope you enjoy, maybe laugh a little. Its not going to be serious by any means. Grammar will be all messed up. But just like my life, nothing is perfect!!